well, i'm alot more together then my last post, which is a good thing. i'm not in that mood often, so don't get used to it. i don't like being "emo", because in my eyes being "emo" doesn't mean you're any different then your normal self, except that you can see your faults. and that is depressing! cause seeing my faults makes me wanna run away from myself.
anyways, on to less boring topics, i'm very unhappy with this weekend. i took bus up to RI on friday for a christmas banquet with my sister,and it was as bad as i imagined. a banquet hall filled with people i didn't know who knew me.yay. i had to escape a couple times just to prevent from hipoventilating (thank you BerBer!). i feel so small in those "social party thing" situations, and i had to dress formal, which always adds to the stress.
i bused back to CT(which isn't a small feat by the way, it's like four hours one way and blows ass) to be greeted by my father.yay again. so i'm stuck w/ him untill tonight. tonight might be cool, or suck butt, i'm not sure. i have a four hour rehearsal which will either; not be cool because it's a FOUR HOUR REHERSAL, rock because i'm with people i want to be with. hopefully the latter not the former.
i'm gonna end in an unsettling note. right now i have a killer headache, which wouldn't be a problem at all, but i've had this same headache for three weeks.ya...don't know what that's all about.
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